Probably The Happiest Moment in My Entire Life

Hey, long time no blogging huh?!



I'm back, and I'm back with a message. I'm just two days away from living my own life and leaving the life I knew - a life full of peace and security to a life of endless possibilities and rsiks... How light I feel, you cannot imagine- how much more when I'm at it already! I can't wait!



Back to life - Living on your own may not be as good as it sounds... But I've been in a preview of it, I lived in the Dormitory for more than a year. But living alone, I mean living alone without people who cook for you and you just wake up and go to the cafeteria can be really difficult... Difficult for the gloomy, but extremely challenging and exciting to the bright. I'm not saying I'm brilliant, you know.



Anyway, yes it's true. I'll be leaving home for a new home in two days. It can be smaller than this old home, but it will be bright and beautiful, as bright and as beautiful as my old home, filled with none other than my hopes and dreams, smiles and laughter, and the contentment I will be enjoying once I get to lead a life of my own.



Missing my family is a thing of the past, indeed. I already had my fair share of nostalgic nights thinking about my family way back home the time I was in the Dormitory. But it will be different this time. I'm free to make my own decisions, and suffer the consequences of my actions. At least, they're all mine, and a chance to hit rock bottom isn't so bad if it came from you.



Now is my chance to prove myself - something I have been craving for the moment I realized I want to develop into a mature human being.



I quote and paraphrase Michelle Tratchenberg from Walt Disney's Ice Princess: "I've wanted this more than I ever wanted anything... If I fail, I fail. But then it's because I wasn't good enough, not because I did'nt have the guts to dare do it" I have to if I want a life led by it's owner. This fact is sadly something people I most expect will can't really understand.



I also have to start disbelieving in fate. I might start calling it God's will now. It may be His will, but still I have a choice. I want that choice to be the master of my life. Anyway, that reigns supreme among other reasons is why I call myself human - God's steward on His creation - and that includes this body I'm in.